Is there anybody out there???????????

God it has been a while since I have been on here.

I have a lot to say but fuck know where to start. Ill move back to today... I bought a bin lol

Review Part 1 - CELINE: Through the eyes of the world 17th February 2010

Well as you may or may not know I am a Celine Dion fan and I have just came back from her documentary movie and want to review it so here goes.

Husband and I got to the cinema at around 7pm, the show didnt start till 8.30 so we went for some drinks and the place was full of Celine Fans, loved it.

Well the show was a mix of concert and documentary (mostly the latter) and began with "I drove all night" concert opening where the screen comes down the music plays, you see the back of Celine walking sexily to the stage and then under, says hello to her staff and back to the stage, screaming crowd and a super sexy video of Celine driving through the desert. Celine comes through the stage and it becomes aparent they are showing footage from two possible releases "Live in Boston" and "Live in Montreal" the screen lifts and Celine appears in a fuscia short micro dress looking stunning and starts to sign. On singing the first line she ask "Is that alright...Boston, Montreal and then Dublin, Copenhagen and so on, showing you the opening line from many concerts.

The documentary then follows her around the world, starting off in "South Africa", which is the first time she has appeared there, with the Soweta gospel choir serenading her at her press conference, you then see footage of Celine signing "Love Can Move Mountains" at a charity concert at the Coca Cola Dome, the night before her concert opening singing with the choir. We then move onto Celine Visiting the Cell where Nelson Mandela spent 27 years of his life, you meet "Rene Charles" properly this time, who Celine clearly dotes on, however throughout the film you see that he is like any other little boy, who hates the fuss mothers put on them, but clearly loves her to peaces...later in the film she makes a cute comment, while putting slippers on him saying he is like a clam with claws and he turns away from her with a look that says "I am too old for this", very funny moment (while on a train in china), at the same time rene her husband is trying to give the trolly woman a tip, whilst she refuses its for the next 5 minutes.

A lot of the footage is celine meeting fans, signing at concerts, crowd interaction and reaction, so as not spoil the film for you, I will list some highlights and you can let me know if you want more

Omitted from her shows following Japan, you get to hear Celine sing "I Got The Music In Me", which is a highlight if the film.

Whilst in Dublin, rene, goes to "ladbrookes" which is a betting shop, and tells the camera, while he was he in "1988", during Celines appearence at the "Eurovision Song Contest" he came to this same bookies and the odds for Celine winning were 11/4 so he placed a bet, she won and he won £1500.

A sad moment in the film comes, when Celine, Rene and Rene Charles visit a concentration camp and are told the stories and visit the areas of the camp, where there were horrible deaths and things get rather upsetting and Celine states "I cant take any more of this" and its time to move on.

A funny moment comes, when in Milan, a fan who has travelled all the way from "Scicily" gets to meet Celine, they hug and she tells Celine how much she loves her, going mad, then they both sign an italian song together erratically and much to Celines bemusment, she starts telling her how much she loves her in french and just grabs her lol, priceless.

Rene Charles sings "We Will Rock You" in front of all the crew, dancers, band and backing singers at a dinner, and everyone loves it.

You get to see Celine signing the full song of the James Brown classic "It's a mans mans world" and she is fantastic at it.

You get to see Celine at the doctors many times throughout the documentary, with shows in "Australia and the USA" being cancelled however so as not to dissapoint fans she completed and america concert before cancelling many shows and although clearly struggling she completes the concert and you see her singing "All by Myself" and she is perfect at it, however after the show someone says at least you did it and its over and celine answers "YES, BUT AT WHAT COST?"

Quite often in the film you get to hear instrumental versions of her songs "Taking Chances" being a highlight.

Biggest Highlight - Celine Singing ""S'il suffisait d'aimer" in "Arras" while it was raining heavily on top of her and she continued singing, stopping once to flik the wet rain from her microphone and the song was beautiful.

Song highlights

River Deep Mountain High
My Heart will go on
"Ticket to Ride" The Carpenters during soundcheck
Song For You
The Prayer with andrea bocelli
S'il Suffisait D'aimer

9.5/10

The only reason, I havent given full marks is because you didnt get to hear her sing or any footage of "Alone" or "Taking Chances"

Anyway, not much of a diary more a review, husband is in bed and I am going off, lots to tell you tomorrow xx

Psychic Circles - Friday 12th February 2010

Well what a fucking day stressful or what. Got up, Husband doing well today, went to for mochachocapish latte at starbucks before work......Lovely

Got into work at about 8 and had more coffee, then started, was totally mobbed all day, nothing special happened until lunch time (however I was very stressed, with deadlines coming out my ears and none of them have an end in sight). We went to MacDOnals (had another fat day). However we bumped into Craig Revel Hall from Strictly come dancing, looked a state in his tracksuit bottoms and trainers but was very nice (if not a little windswept and red faced lol)

Work continued to be stressful and I went home.

As I am writing this I have just returned from the local Spiritualist church, where we were at a development group. We meditated and then went for a walk with our spirit guides in another vibration. Was really peaceful and got a lot of images, one was a swimming pool, where we walked through it, it was so simple and callming, anyway my sister in law was with us. She has just told me that she is 6 weeks pregnant and she has wanted a baby for ages, so it is great news, anyway many psychic have told her she will have Twins and she was given a reading by a man, who said she was pregnant (She is not showing although her TITS are massive already) and she said yes and then he said ITS TWINS lol 2 Girls....OMFUCKINGGOD. LETS HOPE SO I WILL HOPEFULLY BE GODFATHER TO THEM BOTH

Just home as I said and husband is in bed, pills are taking effect so he is out of sorts but its worth it if he gets better, normally takes a few weeks to settle in and then he will be ok..........untill tomorrow.........GOODNIGHT XXX

Depression - 11th February 2010

Well, you might be wondering why it has been so long.......Well what a rough few weeks its been, I wanted to come on but wasnt ready too discuss things, but with this blog I want to discuss my life and how it is to be internationl lol.

Well after many fights, arguments, laughing, meeting old friends and we are back to where we were 2 years ago. Husbands depression is back and I feel so sad for him and for me. You get to this stage and realise the second time round that things are worse than they were before yet we are great, getting on better than we ever have yet it is here again....this time I think it is here to stay.

Only one thing for it and that is making that glass half full, rather than half empty. Life is a big thing and you need to appreciate it, I only hope that I can do my best for him and pull him through this.

Yesterday started with both of us in mad moods as we had a massive fight the night before and I think we were so close to finishing things but we went to bed and woke up still annoyed and angry. We parted at the station and husbnad went to work, as did I. I got a text message at 10.00, " I have been sent home, and I am going to the doctors", anyway we met for lunch (I had mussels and they were lovely), husband told me he was put back on the tablets and given sleeping tablets, my heart sank, I cant bear him hurt and having to go through this again but we need to be strong. The doctor has taken blood tests so we will wait and see what comes from them, as it could be a medical reason for the depression.

Anyway heart to heart last night and everything went well, we know its nothing to do with our relationship. Anyway I played Uncharted 2 and went to bed.

Now I have woken up today and feeling better, went to work and ooh my god I am so busy and it is killing me lol.

Nothing more exciting, I wonder if any of you are listening.

DEPRESSION SUFFERERS - To anyone that suffers depression, Be strong, Have good people around you and get the help you need....You Deserve it. xxxxxxxx

Day 9 – Hangover 2 – 31st January 2010

I have fuck all to say, hangover, sleep and cook. I love to cook on a Sunday; I made Slow Cooked Lamb and Szechuan-Style Hot and sour soup. Here is the recipe for the lamb (made it myself, hope I’m not taking credit for):

50g Butter, 4 lamb chops, 500ml chicken stock, Tin of chopped tomatoes, Garlic Clove, Ginger Root, 1 Onion and as many chopped mushrooms as u like
Brown Lamb Chops on either side, Mix above ingredients in deep frying pan bring to the boil, Add chops to sauce and simmer for 1 1/2 hours, serve with mixed vegetables or rice...Lovely...<strong>Husband gave this 9/10.

Went to view a new house, was rotten, will now wait till May.
Anyway off to bed now......GOODNIGHT!!!

PS, is anyone reading these entries???

Day 8 – Christmas Night Out – 30th January 2010

Hooray its Saturday...Husband is working so needless to say I was woken up at 7.30 before he went to work, couldn’t get back to sleep so got up and watched “How to look good naked”, it was so sad lol and so am I. Anyway decided that I need an image change, so I got an appointment at the hairdressers and I had my head SHAVED, eyebrows waxed and reshaped and a massage.....lovely.

Right, I have my own belated Christmas Night Out tonight, so I need to decide what to wear, I have 2 things in mind. I have grey German army pants with braces, a nice all saints top with grey cardigan (not just a plain cardigan), anyway Ironed these husband said I looked to camp, so there goes that idea, actually it was just the cardigan so I dumped that idea and went for his new £300 crushed leather jacket and with boots over the trousers I looked FUCKING FANTASTIC...

Met the girls at 5.30pm, then went for a few drinks, then went for Spanish tapas for dinner, it was lovely.

Decided to go to a nice bar/club, Victorian style beautiful seats fancy classical music, fantastic for a Gay Superstar (I certainly feel like it tonight), sitting having a few drinks and these few guys and girls offered us a full bottle of wine...naturally we took it (I only had one glass..don’t tell husband lol) anyway my friend made out that we were a couple (straight couple), I hadn’t heard her and then one of the guys made a quip about his friend being gay and I jokingly took offence saying...What the fuck are you talking about I’m Gay!!! Are you he said, I was only joking he said!!! Next thing you know, his friend, who was Irish, tall, slim, dark hair, quite cute, had came back and started trying to chat me up....LOL, my friend stopped him in his tracks, do you know he is married she said, lol there goes my chances of a nice flirt, id never do anything but its funny.

Wait till you here this, the next things you know sitting to the side of us a couple of feet away, where some other friends of this guy were sitting, one of which was totally pissed with a glass of white wine in her hand, tried to throw it at her friend and hit MEEEEEE, I was fucking livid, so we left after I had dried my top under the dryer in the toilet...Anyway time to move on.

Needing some gay dancing, so off we went to the local gay night club.....great night had by all...fantastic.......home at 3.30 and after some loving with husband...sleep....GOODNIGHT

Day 7 – Travelling – 29th January 2010

I woke up this morning and I had the hangover from hell. A text from husband saying “Are you up yet KNOBHEAD (Shit I must have said something to him last night), anyway he has fallen out with me, had to go to work was 40 mins late and it was a nightmare as I knew I had to travel back to Glasgow this afternoon in a stuffy horrible train with a hangover.....Heaven. Anyway throughout the morning, I just texted husband with verses from Love Songs until I was told I was forgiven, anyway I found out that night that I called him up and started a tirade on him for texting me and stalking me all night, telling him I was leaving him and all sorts...I can’t remember a thing lol......definitely... NO MORE WINE FOR ME...

Anyway spent the next few hours (4 to be exact) on the train, sat stuffed in at the window with a couple, who were so clearly in lust, kissing each other constantly then an older woman say beside me stuffing her face the whole way and stinking off coffee...horrible.

Got home watched the final of “Celebrity Big Brother”....Husband came in and we had a Chinese meal and then went to bed......GOODNIGHT.”

Day 6 – Another Big City – 28th January 2010

I am depressed......had to get up at 5am this morning as my train was at 7am, much like any, SHOWER, SHIT & SHAVE.

Went to starbucks and got on the train 20 MINS early. I texted husband...”I don’t really feel great today”, I asked him do you think I look ridiculous, yesterdays email had made me really think about myself, some of it was quite personal....Anyway he texted back to say he thinks I look lovely....but I have lost some of my confidence and maybe a image change might help boost my confidence and I agree with him I think...but what to do???? My night clothes are fine, I have good taste I think but maybe need to spruce it up a little, some different things. I am going to get rid of my glasses and get contacts, shave all my hair off, new wardrobe and lose some weight and get fit again...(I am currently 13 stone, and 5” 8”)
Anyway I am just getting into the big city....

Work was boring of course but night time was a bit better, met 2 friends for dinner, went to a nice restaurant in Manchester, then went to a few gay bars....Met an old friend that I shared a flat with 13 years ago so caught up in between this husband was texting me. And apparently I was texting and calling him and from what I gather some of the things were not very nice. You will need to wait till tomorrow to find out what I said, because I don’t even know lol....thats how drunk I was lol, however I found out in the morning, that husband was not talking to me....

Got back to the hotel....FUCK the door was locked, so had to walk round to the other entrance which was a good few mins away and it was raining so that helped NOT. Anyway got in and I am now in bed......GOODNIGHT

Day 5 – Homophobia – 27th January 2010

What a fucking day....This just shows how dramatic my life really is. Woke up not a problem, got up hot shower calling to wake me up and that was it left the house and went for the bus and then starbucks and had a mochaloccapish as husband calls it lol......Just a usual morning...DRAMA FREE.

Work started off like any other day does, coffee, check emails and start whatever I have on for the day......lots of meetings, I do some design work.....More coffee....I am sure you all know the drill by now.

Anyway around 3pm today, I received an ospicous email address from someone I have never heard of in my life....Calling me a back stabber, and then proceeded to start a homophobic tirade on me .....I was called a fucking poof, my face got slagged off, taking my husband’s name all of that shit....then I was told to watch myself as this person and their best friend would find me lol....that part was funny because for a “poof” as I was called I can look after myself.....

Anyway this came in to my work email address so I had to take it to Human Resources, who of course took this very seriously.

STUPID BASTARDS – Wait to you hear this, of course social networking sites are everywhere and people are easy to find, so we tried to find a connection to this person and me.....Well WE DID. It turns out she is the Ex Girlfriend of some fool that I have had the pleasure (I use the sarcastically, I am sure you know this) of having in my working environment, that clearly didn’t like me. (In case you are wondering, I didn’t back stab this person; they are just a bully with an attitude problem, which I sorted out). Anyway he got the sack for being a LIAR....Must be bored at home....jobless (Sorry to those unemployed through no choice of theirs, I AM JUST VENTING).....ANYWAY...the police are informed and we will wait and see, to keep my anonymity I have just told you some of the story the email was much worse than I have shown above, I have really tried to give you a taster........HOW STUPID ARE SOME PEOPLE........WE WILL FIND YOU.

So I met husband after work and showed him the email, which was in capitals and had text speak on it lol (CHILDREN !!!!) LMFAO (I found out this means...LAUGHING MY FUCKING ASS OFF) Husband just laughed at it as it was quite funny in hindsight. I don’t condemn this sort of behaviour but it was funny in the end...but if you are every in a situation when your being bullied or something like this happens, speak up and don’t let them get to you.

After that the night was quiet got ready for my visit to another BIG SHINY CITY......Right im off to bed with husband to do naughty things......................Goodnight.

Day 4 - PREDJUDICE

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH. YET again - No hot water no heating, what the fuck is going on....Had to wash in the sink using kettle....been told it could be 24 hours fuck that ill get a plumber I said....that stopped that he was here within 6 hrs lol...Love it....Was looking for a hottie but instead I got a grey yin.

Work was shite again, busy busy busy.

Husband sent me 5 texts as someone called him an "English CUnext tuesday" in his work and then ran off...All I can think is here goes nothing nothing special happening tonight....Boy was I wrong.

Looking forward to the weekend now.....got a clubbing weekend ahead, hedonistic fantastic...they dont call me the fluffer for nothing.

Good Night

Day 3 - SPOTS – 25th January 2010

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH....I fucking hate spots, I woke up at 7am this morning, Husband was in a shower, went into the bathroom and bam there is was, right on the left hand side of my cheek on top of my cheeks bone...Come on guys I am a screaming gay man....I’m allowed.

Both very tired today, what a fucking cheek after our lazy day yesterday, having a fucking Chinese (sorry im in a swear mood today). Anyway back to getting ready, new haircut, I love it, took me 2 mins to sort it out.

We got on the bus, sat opposite each other, one thing to know about Glasgow buses, is there is complete silence the whole way lol....or nearly a few guys speaking in French got on the bus and proceeded to have the loudest bus conversation I have ever heard on bus.....Do you know what the funny thing was? They were going from talking in French to English every different sentence....Oh mon Deiu!
Husband was grumpy lol as he was tired, anyway starbucks was calling.....Grande Triple Shot, Extra Hot Wet Latte (What a mouthful)....he calls it Mochachocalattepishhhh lol

Work was hard going today, have 2 heavy deadlines, along with 3 courses coming up within 6 weeks. Also need to go to ANOTHER LARGE CITY IN THE UK for a night this week on Thursday....Husband not happy...Don’t think he likes to be in the house on his own overnight. I would say he would miss me, that would be rich because currently I am watching “Billie meets Belle” in the living room as he watches “STUFF” in the bedroom.

I am now watching “Basic Instinct”, what a lot of shit....being a gay man, how could they not get Michael Douglas to show his cock. Which apparently isn’t that big, ID STILL LIKE A LOOK....Who knew??????.......Anyway Good night

Day 2 Destination Sherlock – 24th January 2010

So got woke up this morning at 4 am, husband has came in with a friend not to pissed though, which is always good, don’t need to look after him. As you can imagine being woke up at that time, it was a day for a long sleep and nothing much else...I told you this would be boring a day of nothing, having Chinese food, watching films and American Idol.....Great Day.

As expected, it was a quiet day, watched 2 more movies, Had a nice time doing naighty stuff, “The Final Destination” and “The New Sherlock Holmes” both are sh*t. I am now going to go and have a little nap, bath and then we watch a tv programme called “Lark rise to Candleford” which is fucking shite.

Anyway back to work tomorrow so should have something more juicy....I hope.
“Introduction to work, learning and development....thats all you need to know, don’t want to give to much away.”

Day 1 Saturday Blues & Afternoon Fun – Today 23rd January 2010

We woke up this morning at 8.30 and I have a hangover, I have decided that I am going to stay in all day and clean the house, that is my excuse anyway for not going anywhere, so this chapter is going to be boring, let’s hope it gets better....I’m sure it will. Husband is going out to meet his Friend (for the benefit of this I will be making up names for all friends, this one I will call Harold)and go some shopping, I have been invited but my head is sore and really just don’t want to go for a boring day looking at cheap January sale stock that is 2 years old, you all know the story.

Anyway husband is out now its 12pm and I have decided that I need some TLC, which means phone call to MUMs MUM, spoke to her and we had the obligatory how are you? What you been up to? Then it moved on to family, WARNING: Down Moment ahead.....(only for 2 mins, you need to know the story)I am going to get into trouble for saying this publically but my brother is up and his girlfriend, with my nephews, one of which is 10 weeks old and I haven’t seen yet as I am not allowed (his choice, not the nephew). Really it’s quite sad as I want to see him and I can’t. An argument which was not our fault has resulted in this, my brother and I haven’t spoken in a few weeks following the arguments and when I had asked to come and see the baby, they said, they would rather I didn’t as I hadn’t contacted him since the fall out but nor had he, but I’m used to one rule for one and a different for the other FUCK THEM.

Anyway cleaned the house and watched the first of 3 films, “Little Women”, Husband came back in at 4 and he had a little gift for me which is my favourite after shave. We had soup and a sandwich for dinner, then went to bed.....to sleep for an hour (not just sleeping either....Fantastic), got up and then he got read, in the middle of this my 2 film started, “Memoirs of a Geisha” and it was fantastic, really liked it. After that played a video game and had a bottle of wine and film number 3. Its now after midnight and I had these thoughts in my head and wanted to write something....so here it is....”A year in the life of me”...Until tomorrow.....Goodnight.

Introductions (Me)

This is going to be Dirty, Honest, Frank, Seething, Real (with some fictitious fun)

I have all these thoughts in my head, Husband is out on a Christmas night out (btw its 23rd January 2010), I have written the first chapter of a second book (the other book only has one chapter too), I am sitting here watching “It’s Complicated” wishing I could have the same kitchen as Meryl Streep lol. I am officially sad. So here it is I have decided that I am going to write a blog, which will be one year in the life of Me.......and Husband. We have an exciting life...read on you will see....well maybe not the first few days. Ill try and keep it all as interesting as I can.

I would love the input of everyone else, on top of what I say, id like a topic to discuss everyweek, where I will research (however I can) and report back.

Anyway here goes.......