Day 6 – Another Big City – 28th January 2010

I am depressed......had to get up at 5am this morning as my train was at 7am, much like any, SHOWER, SHIT & SHAVE.

Went to starbucks and got on the train 20 MINS early. I texted husband...”I don’t really feel great today”, I asked him do you think I look ridiculous, yesterdays email had made me really think about myself, some of it was quite personal....Anyway he texted back to say he thinks I look lovely....but I have lost some of my confidence and maybe a image change might help boost my confidence and I agree with him I think...but what to do???? My night clothes are fine, I have good taste I think but maybe need to spruce it up a little, some different things. I am going to get rid of my glasses and get contacts, shave all my hair off, new wardrobe and lose some weight and get fit again...(I am currently 13 stone, and 5” 8”)
Anyway I am just getting into the big city....

Work was boring of course but night time was a bit better, met 2 friends for dinner, went to a nice restaurant in Manchester, then went to a few gay bars....Met an old friend that I shared a flat with 13 years ago so caught up in between this husband was texting me. And apparently I was texting and calling him and from what I gather some of the things were not very nice. You will need to wait till tomorrow to find out what I said, because I don’t even know lol....thats how drunk I was lol, however I found out in the morning, that husband was not talking to me....

Got back to the hotel....FUCK the door was locked, so had to walk round to the other entrance which was a good few mins away and it was raining so that helped NOT. Anyway got in and I am now in bed......GOODNIGHT